Happy Birthday, Hillary. I still can’t believe that you are the result of what I prayed for, not that I knew that I was actually praying for a daughter like you at the time, but when your mom found out that she was pregnant, at that stage in my life, I routinely made time to engage in an act which I called meditating, only to find out later from the Spirit of the Lord that what I was doing was actually praying in the Spirit, but I thought I was just thinking out loud “how nice it would be to have a cute little daughter” while meditating.
Those first eight years of your life before your mom and I divorced were storybook. It was like a Cosby style American family fantasy. And I had everything a dad could only dream for in a daughter. But I destroyed that fantasy when I committed adultery, which led to your mom and I divorcing.
This excerpt from my book “Elijah Has Come” shares how the Spirit revealed that God did not have a problem with a divorce, but to not even think about divorcing myself from you:
“I finally remembered I had not taken this to the Lord, because at this stage in my life, whenever I had a major problem or did something important, I had learned to take it to the Lord. I would usually go someplace as if a public park where I could be alone with my thoughts to hear the voice of God. I didn’t understand it, but it seemed to work in organizing my thoughts. I asked, “Lord, should I get a divorce?” and He said, “Yes, because you went into it all wrong. Since neither you nor your wife is a child of Light, I don’t have a problem with a divorce. But don’t you even think about leaving your daughter, for she is what you prayed for, remember?” I had forgotten about Hillary.
I did remember while praying in the Spirit one day, sharing with God how nice it would be to have a precious daughter. I promised I would treat her the way a good father would, the way Ward Cleaver treated the Beaver, or the way Danny Thomas treated his daughter in Make Room For Daddy. Those few words from the Lord made me realize how my selfish actions deriving from lust could destroy her emotionally. I loved my daughter so much, I don’t see how I had forgotten her for even a moment. I guess love — or lust — had blinded me to reality.”
Because I always keep my promises made with God, I’m praying with all my heart and soul that you can see that God is the reason why our relationship over the years has been wonderful. Even though work restraints sometimes limited the time we could spend together, I enjoyed and continue to enjoy the time I get to spend with my most precious daughter. You are everything I prayed for. So in the name of the Lord God Almighty and the Lord Jesus Christ, I say unto you my most precious daughter… “Happy Birthday, Hillary!”
Elijah Has Come 